The Long Road of Blog

“It’s as though I were living at last in my eyes, as I have always dreamed of doing, and I think then I know why I’ve come here: to see, and so to go out against new things—oh god how easily—like air in a breeze. It’s true there are moments—foolish moments, ecstasy on a tree stump—when I’m all but gone, scattered I like to think like seed…”

William Gass, In the Heart of the Heart of the Country

Anne Heffron 4/29/23 Anne Heffron 4/29/23

Listening to Haley Radke and Laura Summers, LMFT, Talk about Pet Loss and Disenfranchised Grief

I got to 19 minutes and fifty-one seconds in the April 28, 2023 episode of Adoptees On, and I had to take a breather.

Anne Heffron 4/27/23 Anne Heffron 4/27/23

How to Get Out of The Chaos of Your Mind and Tell Your Story

If you are struggling to write your story, here’s an idea: take a piece of paper and draw a line down the middle. Scribble on the right hand side. That chaos is your story in embryo form. The problem is you think it’s your story.

Anne Heffron 4/17/23 Anne Heffron 4/17/23

Anguish

For a long time, I had confused the deep urge to expresss myself and live with anger or depression or trouble.

Anne Heffron 4/16/23 Anne Heffron 4/16/23

I'm a Rock Star, and So Are You

I had a friend who would sometimes call me “Poor thing” when I’d tell him a story where I was suffering in my life.

Anne Heffron 4/14/23 Anne Heffron 4/14/23

Listening to Amy Geller and her Husband Jeff Nyhuis on the Podcast Adoptees On

“Our podcast dropped today,” Amy texted me. “When you have time, I’d love to hear your thoughts.” I put Bird’s collar and leash back on, opened the car door, and headed out to do more walking.

Anne Heffron 4/12/23 Anne Heffron 4/12/23

The Open-Focused Brain, a Whole New Life, (and, duh, Adoption)

I’m always surprised when I get a book from the library and find someone had written notes all over the pages.

Anne Heffron 4/11/23 Anne Heffron 4/11/23

Trusting Your Gut as an Adopted Person--Some Thoughts

In You Don’t Look Adopted, I wrote that in my life I felt as if I had one foot on the gas and one foot on the brake.

Anne Heffron 4/10/23 Anne Heffron 4/10/23

The Adoptee Body and Movement

This is a strange thing, to go from a body that has to move vigorously to a body that’s only willing to walk.

Anne Heffron 4/7/23 Anne Heffron 4/7/23

On Not Running or Staying Like You Mean It

I had a familiar feeling today when I was out in the woods with Bird: I gotta get out of here.

Anne Heffron 4/6/23 Anne Heffron 4/6/23

The Adoptee Body, Cash Money, and The Memory Palace of Bones

I have been reading a new book by David Lauterstein and Jeff Rockwell called The Memory Palace of Bones, and it has me thinking about my skeleton and the stories that it holds.

Anne Heffron 4/4/23 Anne Heffron 4/4/23

When She Named "Square One" Martha Beck Named, I Think, the Adoptee Predicament

I wrote the blog post yesterday about frozen dreams because I felt like I wasn’t going to be able to write the post I really wanted to write: this one.

Anne Heffron 4/3/23 Anne Heffron 4/3/23

The Frozen Center and Forgotten Dreams

Maybe when a baby is adopted, they should come to their new family wearing a t-shirt that says I’M GOING TO CAUSE TROUBLE so everything would be out in the open from day one.