The Long Road of Blog
“It’s as though I were living at last in my eyes, as I have always dreamed of doing, and I think then I know why I’ve come here: to see, and so to go out against new things—oh god how easily—like air in a breeze. It’s true there are moments—foolish moments, ecstasy on a tree stump—when I’m all but gone, scattered I like to think like seed…”
William Gass, In the Heart of the Heart of the Country
Flying Over My Life--Why This Did Not Earn Me A's in School
I used to have no idea why I could not focus consistently in school.
What if Your Body Doesn't Know Hunger or Fullness?
I read recently that the infant’s body discovers hunger when it has a feeling that is addressed when the mother feeds it
From Flourish Class -- Guest Blog Post by Dawn Conwell Mulkay -- This Life Is Not a Rented Costume
I am not in full ownership of my life. Admitting this is humiliating and it makes me angry.
The Adoptee Body and Proprioception
I am curious if the trauma associated with losing your mother at birth or soon after affects the body’s ability to know it is there.
To My Daughter On Her Birthday
On her birthday, my daughter is matching people’s donations with money of her own to help support Asian businesses that are struggling during COVID. It’s easier to think that birthdays are about cake and presents and wishes for untold happinesses. But the truth is that when we are birthed into life we get the whole Pandora’s Box.
Why I am Not Changing My Puppy's Name
Nash was not my dog first. Other people loved him before I will get to love him.
How to Get the Thrill of Writing a Book While Just Living Your Life
Sit down. Stand up. Drive. Go for a run. It doesn’t matter. Lie on the floor. You just have to be alive for this to work.
[M]other -- Guest Blog Post by Lauren Zoller
“What cannot be communicated to the [m]other cannot be communicated to the self.”
Thoughts on the Body
Sometimes it’s easier to love what isn’t there. Sometimes it feels easier to live in your head instead of in your body.
The House of Felt Safety that is Our Body
As I listened to Panache today, I thought about pretending to go to graduate school for a sense of felt safety.
Speak, Adoption
Just how many times can you cry in front of your spouse or your best friend or your child and say, I’m thinking about when I was a baby? I’m wondering why my mother didn’t want me? I’m bent over double because I can’t believe this happened?