It’s a wonderful way to get grounded, to feel yourself in your body, and to remind your body what a deep, present breath looks like in your imagination as you imagine the diaphragms working together.

This exercise works with, among other things, your vestibular system, the sensory system behind each ear that coordinates movement with balance and helps give you a sense of where you are in space.

I am deeply interested in the relationship between being relinquished and having issues around money.

Yesterday was a terrible day, and it was because of breakfast.

There are no books out on how relinquishment and adoption affect the body of the child/adult or the body of the relinquishing parent. I feel like I am in a forest, looking for a path. 

On Instagram, the yoga teacher Rod Stryker posted: Make a conscious effort to reject that which is not helpful in your life, and embrace what is.

Living a life as an adult after an infancy marked by inadequately addressed trauma is like driving a car prone to breakdowns.

What if when you are born and you take your first breath your mother disappears? What if you learn to associate breath with loss? I thought about this, about how I could teach myself to feel safe with deep breathing. 

It’s been a few weeks, but I had acupuncture again. I was there to support my digestive system, and the acupuncturist told me the most important point to address was Stomach 36.

Today I decided to go in the ocean instead of walking along it at a safe distance.

Adopted people, if they interpreted relinquishment as trauma, if their body/mind believes the mother gave them up because they weren’t good enough to keep, may well be fragile flames their entire lives.

I am a walking intestinal experiment.