This exercise works with, among other things, your vestibular system, the sensory system behind each ear that coordinates movement with balance and helps give you a sense of where you are in space.

I am deeply interested in the relationship between being relinquished and having issues around money.

Yesterday was a terrible day, and it was because of breakfast.

There are no books out on how relinquishment and adoption affect the body of the child/adult or the body of the relinquishing parent. I feel like I am in a forest, looking for a path. 

On Instagram, the yoga teacher Rod Stryker posted: Make a conscious effort to reject that which is not helpful in your life, and embrace what is.

Living a life as an adult after an infancy marked by inadequately addressed trauma is like driving a car prone to breakdowns.

What if when you are born and you take your first breath your mother disappears? What if you learn to associate breath with loss? I thought about this, about how I could teach myself to feel safe with deep breathing. 

It’s been a few weeks, but I had acupuncture again. I was there to support my digestive system, and the acupuncturist told me the most important point to address was Stomach 36.

Today I decided to go in the ocean instead of walking along it at a safe distance.

Adopted people, if they interpreted relinquishment as trauma, if their body/mind believes the mother gave them up because they weren’t good enough to keep, may well be fragile flames their entire lives.

I am a walking intestinal experiment.

If someone offered me a spoon, a fork, or a shovel to eat my meal, I’d take the shovel every time.