The Long Road of Blog
“It’s as though I were living at last in my eyes, as I have always dreamed of doing, and I think then I know why I’ve come here: to see, and so to go out against new things—oh god how easily—like air in a breeze. It’s true there are moments—foolish moments, ecstasy on a tree stump—when I’m all but gone, scattered I like to think like seed…”
William Gass, In the Heart of the Heart of the Country
We Tell Stories to Find the Truth
I did not know it was okay to live in paradox, to hate and love at the same time.
Big Mind, Small Mind, Drunks, and Writing. To My Writing Group Who Has Been Working for Eight Months.
Big mind is merciful but not easy. Big mind is you at your very best.
An Argument Against Gratitude Sort Of
To appreciate something is to see it, is to bear witness, to observe, to experience it. To be grateful is to hand over a thank you note on a silver platter.
To Adopt and To Lie. Part 5
It’s an amazing moment when, as a child, you realize you can manipulate reality with language.
Why (Do) Did I Lie? An Adopted Person Tries to Tell the Truth. Part 2
I lie because I am rageful, heartbroken, starving, and confused. I am also curious, highly manipulative, and full of joy.
Why Did (Do) I Lie? An Adopted Person Tries to Tell the Truth
Lying made me feel amazing, free, sick, and scared. Telling lies created situations in the outside world that mirrored the mayhem in my internal world that I could not articulate or even perhaps feel.
On Hearing and Belonging: After Reading Jen Pastiloff's On Being Human -- Guest Blog Post by Susie Stricker
I was so startled by the loud noise of tearing and crumpling paper, as if many presents were being torn open at once by excited children on Christmas day, that I nearly fall out of my chair.
The Why of Your Voice or Why I Felt So Bad after My Father Said He Read My Book
Having an authentic voice takes courage for some of us, for me.
Want to Hear a Door Slam? Hurt an Adoptee's Feelings.
In the past few months, I have let down three adoptees (that I know of). This means that either I didn’t show up as promised or I behaved in an unpredictable, unsupportive manner.